I Hate This

I'm L.A.T.E.

So, either I am or I'm not. Today is 17dpo (I think) and I've taking 3 Equate brand tests, and the first 2 were definite BFNs (not that that surprises me at all), but the third which I took this morning I thought had an ever so faint line. So, I ripped the stupid test apart, like I've done so many times in the past to "try" to get a better look at it. I held it in many different brightnesses of lights, and to no avail I have come to the understanding that I pretty sure the test is yet another BFN. Doesn't really surprise me though. However, I believe I've tricked myself into thinking I'm having and/or having pregnancy type symptoms. Just as I've done in the past with infertility. YIKES!!! This trait of mine is so stinkin' repetitive. I'd rather not obsess over TTC, but I am and I do. So, another test in the morning, and if still a BFN a warranted call to the GYN. ARGH!!!

So, enlight of TTC, and me thinking I know what did the trick in the miraculous conception of *B*, our plan is to put TTC on hiatus until mid-March or early April. The new game plan is to drop the leftover baby weight from having *B*, and get down to or even under my pre-pregnancy weight with him. Hopefully, doing this will jump start my reproductive track again, and then we will still have 4ish months before *B* is a year old that I will "supposedly" have a higher chance at conception during. So, I see my family Dr. Friday, and my plan is to get on all the right (same) meds as I was on pre-*B*, and hope that that gives me energy and helps in my weight-loss. Plus, eat healthy, cut back on refined sugars and regular sugars, and TRY (yes I MUST) TRY to excercise more. Wish me luck in the weight-loss dept.

T-minus 60-75ish days until TTC resumes and counting.