Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Chugging Along & A Loss in the Family

I'm currently 25w3d pregnant, and things are moving along smoothly. We found out that we are having another girl. Naming her has been nothing but complicated. We will find a name that we like but then end up finding out another family member or a family friend has the same name. So, then we go looking another name. At this rate she may very well come into the world nameless unfortunately.

Speaking of pregnancy I have to take the 3hr GTT , again. So not thrilled. My OB said in early pregnancy sometimes the mother can have GD & not know it b/c the body masks its symptoms. I'm hoping I pass it. I feel nothing like I did with *A* this go around, so we will see. Pray I pass it b/c I don't want to have to take insulin & feel like I'm starving myself by following the diabetic diet.

In other news... my aunt recenty passed away. I feel numb to the loss so far, but I'm sure the tears will fall at her service. The hardest part has been dealing with my Dad. It was his sister that passed & she was younger than him. He's been taking it rough. He even threatened suicide the other day which has taken a toll on me. Him and I have a love-hate relationship 90% of the time, however losing my Dad would kill me. Since, I'm the oldest my siblings have been looking to me take care of him and watch after him so he doesn't do anything stupid. Emotionally speaking from my stand pojnt, I can't deal with the stress while I'm pregnant. Truth be told I'd rather just avoid the situation. I'm hoping once my aunt is buried though that things with my Dad will calm down, but it's hard to tell.

Just please if you read and you are a rayi,g person, pray for peace at heart and mind for my family. Thank you.

Saturday, July 5, 2014

Hormonal Train Wreck

I passed the 3hr GTT, but everything has went downhill from there. :(

Actually I've been on this head-on collision course with an emotional breakdown since I found out I was pregnant. Such as with my last two pregnancies that I carried out of the first trimester I was a basket case, cried at the drop of a dime. This pregnancy I've been bitchy. REALLY bitchy! Well tonight I just let it all out. My poor DH, he doesn't know what to think. But seriously how the hell do you father children & not pay attention to them?!?! My kids want to be up his arse when he's not working & that is a burden to him. You've heard of last fling before the ring... how about last fling before baby?!?! Argh! His friends are much more important than his present kids, pregnant wife, and/or family. Ugh!!!!!

Going to try to breathe & carry on but it's hard to think pleasant thoughts when things are less than ideal. :-(

Monday, June 16, 2014

Dusting Off the Blog

Hi Everyone! Remember me??

It's hard to believe that it's been almost 2yrs since my last post. Time sure does fly when you're having fun, right? So, any way here's a brief update on the Baby Dreams family...

I have an almost 7yr old & an almost 3yr old. WOW! hat seems crazy to me. *B* is grong like a weed. He'll be a 2nd grader in the fall. He's really into sports, too. Right now we're in the midst of t-ball season with him. DH & I have been coaching his team for the last 2yrs. That is an adventurous task for anyone that's not ever done it. Having 10-15 kids that are 4-6yrs old... yeah alot of patience is required At the end of next month he'l be starting football (one of my favorite sports!) & I'm excited to see how he does. :)

*A* is also growing, but more like at a snails pace, as I say. LOL! She's still our Little Miss. While she loves to be all dressy, have her little bit of hair done, & her nails painted; she still likes to get down & dirty and play in the mud with her brother's trucks. She's my little country princess. She also loves sports. When we go to the ball field for game day, she's all about throwing the ball too while the other kids warm-up. Right now I'm trying to potty train her. It's a hit & miss ordeal, nothing like her brother was. I wish she would get the hang of it, so we can get her out of diapers & pull-ups b/c....
I'm pregnant!!! Yep, I'm completely cliche & sound like the 16 & Pregnant show. LOL! Any way, I'm 14w2d today. This pregnancy has been nothing textbook at all. I had low rising progesterone & had to have PIO shots until a couple days shy of 11wks. The baby had a low heart rate in the beginning. I.had a blood hemangioma in/near my uterus (it's aborbed now). p've had cramping & minor spotting. And, I've already failed my 1hr GTT that I had to take b/c I had GD with *A*. I have to take the 3hr GTT this Wed. :( So, not looking fwd to that! Or the potential of me having GD again. Otherwise I'm just a plugging along in this pregnancy.

So' that's my uodate in a nutshell. I'm going to "try" to update regularly now that I'm pregnant again, but I'm not making any promises. Having 2 active little ones makes it hard.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

4th of July

Our 4th was spent leisurely hanging out in our pool. Nothing special or too over the top for a change which I really liked. We just spent it as a family of four. We had our own little cookout & went to our local fairgrounds to watch the fireworks. They were short lived by a severe thunderstorm that rolled in before they were over. After it passed we just sat on our front porch letting *B* do sparklers & listening to the thunder off in the distance. Nothing big like I said, but that is how I like it these days.
Hanging out in the pool before the fireworks
 My little firecrackers decked out in their red, white, & blue
 Mommy & *A*
 *B* doing sparklers

Mommy & her babies in our 4th of July best

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Playing Catch Up

I can't believe it's been so long since I've wrote anything here. I think about writing all time, but finding time with two completely clingy hands-on all the time children is very difficult. Let's see where should I begin... probably the beginning... lol! Ok so I'm just going to do a highlight reel.

Let's see, after I last wrote me and my kids played revolving sickies swap every 3wks until about the end of March. *B* would bring us something new & exciting (hence the sarcasm here) home from school, then he wouldn't stay out of *A*'s face, and well I was caring for them both while DH worked so we all had it. By the time I got him better I was sick and *A* was just starting to get better he would bring us something else home. The boy can't seem to keep him hands or mouth off of germy things. That really took alot out of us/me. The worst things was the bronchitis he caught and brought home at Thanksgiving time that gave me walking pneumonia and gave *A* RSV. Oh and then there was pink eye which seemed to last in our house even with washing EVERYTHING down for 2 whole months. Come to find out it was on a toy he was playing with at school that the teacher wasn't cleaning and that's how he kept bringing it back. Thank God pre-school is out now, but I'm dreading kindergarten this fall.

In mid-December we got another BFP. Shocked? Yep, so were we. That was short lived though as I fell through the cracks during the holidays & with my low rising progesterone issues the little bean didn't stick. In fact I still wonder what happened, b/c at the first ultrasound in early 2012 there was nothing at all (even though I was still getting BFPs) except for a thickening on one side of my uterus and it looked spongey where the follicle/embryo "might" of implanted. Yet there was nothing to indicate m/c at this point. So, I was given three options on what to do and I chose a medicine that would start my bleeding so I was expel whatever was in my body of a pregnancy and after 7-10 days of bleeding if it hadn't slowed I was to start & stay on bcps to regulate my AFs, prevent further pregnancies, & shrink the large cyst that was found on my right ovary. Can I just say as a person who has only ever used bcps for short periods of time to reduce cyst sizes in my entire life... I HATE THE SIDE EFFECTS OF BCPS!!

In the spring *A* started pulling herself up before she learned how to crawl. She still isn't walking, but she's now a super fast crawler & cruises along everything. *B* graduated pre-school & is all set to start kindergarten in the fall. DH started talking to his sisters again after H*attie had a home fire where her, her husband, & step-children lost everything. At that time H*attie informed us she signed away her rights to *H* & he was adopted by his new step-mom. I started trying to have a better relationship with my Mom this past spring after she had a heart-attack & I realized life is way too short to worry about all the other things but your family.

And those are the significant high-lights I can remember. I'm sure there's more but they must not be that important or I'd be able to remember them better. All this has brought those who still check in on me from time to time up to speed for this summer, and I'm going to try to write at least once a week as I can remember. I mean *B*'s 5th birthday just passed & I need to write about that, and *A*'s 1st birthday is right around the corner. Plus, I've gotten some devastating health news recently I need to write about. So, stick around there will be more to come in the coming days & weeks.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

*A* Made Top 5 & Still Needs Your Votes!!!

If you voted for my daughter to help her get to the Top 5 (or even if you didn't), she's now in the Top 5. So, I need your help to make her #1!! This is for all the marbles. Just click the link below if you have an FACEBOOK account (you don't have to tell me that you did it, especially if you blog annonymously) and then "LIKE" her picture to earn her a vote. Voting ends Friday (9/30/11) at 9pm CST. Thanks for all your help.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Please Vote For The Little Miss!!

*A* was entered in a photo contest for her adorable headbands that I'm always putting on her. Right now I'm trying to get her into the Top 5 in the contest, so... If you have a Facebook account could you please click on the link below and vote for *A* for me? All you have to do is "Like" her photo and then leave a comment to seal the deal. Thank ya'll so much!!