Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Chugging Along & A Loss in the Family

I'm currently 25w3d pregnant, and things are moving along smoothly. We found out that we are having another girl. Naming her has been nothing but complicated. We will find a name that we like but then end up finding out another family member or a family friend has the same name. So, then we go looking another name. At this rate she may very well come into the world nameless unfortunately.

Speaking of pregnancy I have to take the 3hr GTT , again. So not thrilled. My OB said in early pregnancy sometimes the mother can have GD & not know it b/c the body masks its symptoms. I'm hoping I pass it. I feel nothing like I did with *A* this go around, so we will see. Pray I pass it b/c I don't want to have to take insulin & feel like I'm starving myself by following the diabetic diet.

In other news... my aunt recenty passed away. I feel numb to the loss so far, but I'm sure the tears will fall at her service. The hardest part has been dealing with my Dad. It was his sister that passed & she was younger than him. He's been taking it rough. He even threatened suicide the other day which has taken a toll on me. Him and I have a love-hate relationship 90% of the time, however losing my Dad would kill me. Since, I'm the oldest my siblings have been looking to me take care of him and watch after him so he doesn't do anything stupid. Emotionally speaking from my stand pojnt, I can't deal with the stress while I'm pregnant. Truth be told I'd rather just avoid the situation. I'm hoping once my aunt is buried though that things with my Dad will calm down, but it's hard to tell.

Just please if you read and you are a rayi,g person, pray for peace at heart and mind for my family. Thank you.

Saturday, July 5, 2014

Hormonal Train Wreck

I passed the 3hr GTT, but everything has went downhill from there. :(

Actually I've been on this head-on collision course with an emotional breakdown since I found out I was pregnant. Such as with my last two pregnancies that I carried out of the first trimester I was a basket case, cried at the drop of a dime. This pregnancy I've been bitchy. REALLY bitchy! Well tonight I just let it all out. My poor DH, he doesn't know what to think. But seriously how the hell do you father children & not pay attention to them?!?! My kids want to be up his arse when he's not working & that is a burden to him. You've heard of last fling before the ring... how about last fling before baby?!?! Argh! His friends are much more important than his present kids, pregnant wife, and/or family. Ugh!!!!!

Going to try to breathe & carry on but it's hard to think pleasant thoughts when things are less than ideal. :-(

Monday, June 16, 2014

Dusting Off the Blog

Hi Everyone! Remember me??

It's hard to believe that it's been almost 2yrs since my last post. Time sure does fly when you're having fun, right? So, any way here's a brief update on the Baby Dreams family...

I have an almost 7yr old & an almost 3yr old. WOW! hat seems crazy to me. *B* is grong like a weed. He'll be a 2nd grader in the fall. He's really into sports, too. Right now we're in the midst of t-ball season with him. DH & I have been coaching his team for the last 2yrs. That is an adventurous task for anyone that's not ever done it. Having 10-15 kids that are 4-6yrs old... yeah alot of patience is required At the end of next month he'l be starting football (one of my favorite sports!) & I'm excited to see how he does. :)

*A* is also growing, but more like at a snails pace, as I say. LOL! She's still our Little Miss. While she loves to be all dressy, have her little bit of hair done, & her nails painted; she still likes to get down & dirty and play in the mud with her brother's trucks. She's my little country princess. She also loves sports. When we go to the ball field for game day, she's all about throwing the ball too while the other kids warm-up. Right now I'm trying to potty train her. It's a hit & miss ordeal, nothing like her brother was. I wish she would get the hang of it, so we can get her out of diapers & pull-ups b/c....
I'm pregnant!!! Yep, I'm completely cliche & sound like the 16 & Pregnant show. LOL! Any way, I'm 14w2d today. This pregnancy has been nothing textbook at all. I had low rising progesterone & had to have PIO shots until a couple days shy of 11wks. The baby had a low heart rate in the beginning. I.had a blood hemangioma in/near my uterus (it's aborbed now). p've had cramping & minor spotting. And, I've already failed my 1hr GTT that I had to take b/c I had GD with *A*. I have to take the 3hr GTT this Wed. :( So, not looking fwd to that! Or the potential of me having GD again. Otherwise I'm just a plugging along in this pregnancy.

So' that's my uodate in a nutshell. I'm going to "try" to update regularly now that I'm pregnant again, but I'm not making any promises. Having 2 active little ones makes it hard.