The shit is about to hit the fan. I'm sad and depressed, yet irritated and outraged at the same time. H*attie and J*ordan came to visit today, and to pick up their son whom we've had since New Year's, b/c they wanted to get trashed. Talk about a binger. Any way, H*attie was all giddy and acted like she wanted to crawl out of her own skin with excitement. So, I asked her what was up? I about fell over with a heart attack to her response.....I'm pretty sure I'm pregnant again. I took a test this morning and got a very light positive.
I asked her when they had sex, b/c she's not even 6wks post-partum yet. (She will be in a week although I'm not sure how as H*unter just turned a month old yesterday.) She told me when H*unter was 2wks old. Are you freaking kidding me??? When he was 2wks old we had him here. She was crying and sleep deprived and miserable, needed a break. We more or less gave them the opportunity to have another baby that we'll be left to take care of when s/he is a newborn. They're not even taking care of the child they currently have properly, and then this news pisses me off. While I hope that it's a false positive I'm sure it's probably not, and I don't really know what to think.
I'm sad beyond belief. How can this be possible? Why is this happening? Why not DH and me, we've been trying for #2 for almost a year now? Then there comes the rage. I want to wring her scrawny little neck. I want to cut of his pecker. I want to scream at them you think one is hard, you're going to have two and only 10months apart. She has no idea, it's like she's not even living in the real world, but yet her own little fantasy world. I think she thinks we're always going to be there to help her out or bail her out. I'm beginning to think not so much any more. I just want to cry. I can't be happy for them, and I tried to talk to DH. His response you're the one making it too easy on them it's no wonder she's pregnant again. I don't want to hear your belly-aching, b/c this wouldn't of happened had it not been for you taking H*unter off their hands for them. You should of let them suffer it out like every other couple with a newborn has to do, and things of that nature.
For once licking my infertility wounds will not help. This hurt is too deep and way too painful. I just pray that God has that family's best interest at heart, b/c I'm pretty sure I'm ready to wash my hands of the situation.