Friday, May 27, 2011

WARNING: SYSTEM OVERLOAD!!!

MELTDOWN IN 3.... 2.... 1.... AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!


(So, that you're aware before you proceed through this entry there is some vulgarity, alot of whining, bitching, and complaining. You are forewarned.)



The past two weeks have been weeks from hell, to put it mildly. It started with going to my new OB for my first appt. That wasn't that bad. But, I had to have the 1hr GTT done, that all women get done while at this point in their pregnancy. I failed that with flying colors, of course. So, I had the 3hr GTT done. Failed that too with flying colors. So, I had to see a diabetic dietitian and a diabetic counseling nurse. All that was fine too. What wasn't fine was that even given my new diet plan, and following it to the "T" I was having high sugars and severe lows. So, I had to call my OB to let him know what was going on. He then increased my oral insulin (Gly*buride) and referred me to a high risk specialist that deals with nothing but pregnant women that have gestational diabetes. The problem with this is it is an hour and forty-five minute drive away from where I live. Shit!


Seriously having GD has been a huge pain in my ass, and I've only been dealing with it for a week and a half. I hate having headaches from bouncing sugars. I hate having to watch my diet and my total carb count. I hate feeling shakey when my sugar drops to rapidly. I hate pricking my fingers 7 times a day. I hate that I have sore fingertips that even hurt to type let alone do anything else with. I hate that I have to sit by watching my family eat things I love, while I can't do it. I hate that this has honestly been the one complication that I've had so far, when I was really looking forward to an uneventful pregnancy this go round since my pregnancy with *B* was so complicated & intense. I hate that I feel like I can no longer enjoy this pregnancy, and that I feel like I'm counting down the days until it'll be over just so that I don't have to deal with this shit anymore.


If you've ever had GD, and have never dealt with sugar issues before I'm sure you know what I'm talking about. It is like torture for a pregnant person. You want to eat when you want to eat, and you want to eat what you want to eat whenever. I constantly feel like I'm starving b/c I'm only allowed to eat every 3hrs, and the the options I have to eat feel limiting to me and most certainly do not fill me up. Oh and then there is the drinking water and only water thing. I love water don't get me wrong. It's my go to drink. However, I like to drink a sweet tea or a can of soda every once in awhile. If you drink one 12oz drink of either that is already one 30g total carb meal or snack and you haven't even ate anything with it. ARGH! Oh and it's summer and two of my favorite things to eat (ice cream & popscicles) are HUGE no-no's.


I know I need to be looking to the brighter side of things and seeing that this is such a small price to pay to ensure optimal health for my in-utero daughter who needs me, but damn it's sooooo hard for me. I'm doing better on my higher dosage sugar med, but it still feels like I'm depriving myself of things. I just have to keep telling myself there is only 11wks or less until she makes her presence in the world, and I can do it. I have to do it, for her health and my own.


Oh and as if dealing with having GD isn't bad enough *B* had his adnoid & tonsilectomy done a week ago today. He didn't have to have tubes put in his ears thank goodness. He was a champ at eating directly after the surgery with 2 popscicles, a chocolate chip cookie, chicken & stars soup with crackers, orange sherbet ice cream, about 5 bites of a sub I was eating for lunch, and some gold* fish crackers. His appetite is much different now though. I'm lucky to get him to eat one thing a day and drink 12oz or so of fluid. He's healing fine, but his whining from pain has me at my breaking point too. I know that he can't change how he feels thus he can't change his reactions to how he feels, but it's very exhausting for me. DH helps as much as he can when he's not working, but most times I feel like he makes him cry when he's home. I know he doesn't mean to and he's just parenting *B* how he should be parented when he's not sore, it's just that it's hard on me seeing him crying. I tend to give him whatever he wants when DH isn't here just so that I don't have to listen to the constant whimpering and whining that has become and everyday thing now for a week.


Go ahead pass me the Bad Mother Award, I don't give a shit. I'm dealing with enough as it is, what's one more thing to deal with or be criticized on. I can't wait until he's back to 100%... it most certainly can not come fast enough. I think this Mama needs a vacation... PRONTO!


*sigh*

5 comments:

  1. Hugs about the healing son. Give it one more week and you'll see a different child..just keep pushing the fluids. Honestly, don't force eating but force the fluids. I've taken two young girls through this and gone through this surgery myself (this year).

    BTW, I bet I know you're GD high risk doctor...email the name and where you're seeing him at. I'm pretty certain he was my high risk doctor...because if he's in C-bus he's the GD guru...if so i'll give you some pointers on him.

    Hugs on the GD. I didn't have it but my bf had it as well as other friends and had issues controlling the sugar from highs to low. I wish I would have remembered what was shared with me about it. The high risk doctor made me do the 3 hr test at 12 weeks pg and when my regular ob had me do the 1 hr test at 24 weeks I had way low (56) blood sugar so those tests just made me miserable! Hugs to you.

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  2. I had GD with my daughter as well. I took insulin while pregnant because they couldnt control it with diet. I also believe that insulin is safer for the baby than meds. The good news is that I actually lost weight and after the pregnancy I was 10 lbs lighter than before getting pregnant. So you can have that going for you! I also saw an endocrinologist that specialized in GD, I think this is a better option than high risk OB, and as long as the blood sugar in under control having GD isnt considered high risk, and you may have an endocrinologist closer to you than the high risk OB. Good Luck!!

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  3. I had GD with Cole and was luckily able to control it with my diet, but it was still hard. I found myself eating as much of the "free" foods as my doctor said was ok. So i ate tons of green beans, broccoli and squash. I found that if you really watch your carbs and pick the right foods your hunger does eventually go away and you do start to feel full. Even if you can't have the lasagna, bread, pasta or big mac you can find things that you do like and will make you happy. I also found that a sonic strawberry sundae had just enough carbs to count as a snack, so you can still have ice cream (or i did), you just have to limit how much. Search online for fast food nurtition info and you can find something that will make you happy. It does suck though especially having the pregnant cravings that you can't fill, that was always hard. Hang in there though, your healthy baby girl will make it all worthwhile and who knows maybe the diet can help you maintain weight and not continue to gain, that it what it did for me. Now if I had only stayed on the diet after Cole arrived I wouldn't have gained my weight back! I hope B gets back to normal soon and you can relax a little. HUGS!!

    Leia

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  5. I am so sorry you are going through a so much!!

    I was diagnosed with GD as well. After a few weeks I started to figure out it was milk that was messing with my sugars so once I took that out and added in a calcium supplement things are going much better!!

    Happy Early Birthday to your Son!!!

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