I really wish I knew what was going on inside my body. I'm telling you if I had the money and the medical knowledge to operate and know what I was looking at, I would buy me some high-tech medical equiptment for my house to keep track of the goings-on in there. So I mentioned my body was toying with me.... well it's REALLY toying with me now. My emotions are all over the place. Mostly they are of the teary-eyed variety, but I have some raging bitch moments in there.
(PLEASE BE PREPARED FOR TMI FOR THE REST OF THIS ENTRY)
Then there was see spot, see spot go away, and come again the next day. Now there is AF which graciously arrived in all her glory last night, but is really lite and unusual for me. Amongst the weird that's been going on was my boobs were looking and feeling larger than life and really sore to the touch especially the nips. I've also been twingy/twitchy crampy versus the normal saw me in half cramps, and there has been no PMS that I normally have just headaches. So, then the weirdest of everything that's been going on was what happened this morning when I was starting a load of laundry.... my boobs were hurting just like they have been then all of a sudden the pain went away and the front of my shirt was wet. My boobs are leaking, like I'm lactating like when I had *B*. It's happened two more times since this morning too, and I'm not talking a little bit but like let down type of wet, and I haven't breastfed since *B* was 15days old.
(PLEASE BE PREPARED FOR TMI FOR THE REST OF THIS ENTRY)
Then there was see spot, see spot go away, and come again the next day. Now there is AF which graciously arrived in all her glory last night, but is really lite and unusual for me. Amongst the weird that's been going on was my boobs were looking and feeling larger than life and really sore to the touch especially the nips. I've also been twingy/twitchy crampy versus the normal saw me in half cramps, and there has been no PMS that I normally have just headaches. So, then the weirdest of everything that's been going on was what happened this morning when I was starting a load of laundry.... my boobs were hurting just like they have been then all of a sudden the pain went away and the front of my shirt was wet. My boobs are leaking, like I'm lactating like when I had *B*. It's happened two more times since this morning too, and I'm not talking a little bit but like let down type of wet, and I haven't breastfed since *B* was 15days old.
I've peed on all of 6 HPTs and they were all BFNs except I thought I saw a faint line on the last one to which DH said he saw nothing, and I tore it apart to try to prove my point. He then peeled it from my clammy white grip and trashed it in the kitchen trash that was all nasty and gross. To which I feel to the floor and bawled. I've NEVER had this happen before, and I've been looking online (and only coming up with things that make my head swirl) for answers as to what is going on. Looks like I'm going to have to call my OB/GYN that I hate to see if I can get in ASAP, b/c I can't wait until the beginning of January to see the RE to see what is going on, why I sit and wait, wonder, and worry.
Anyone have this happen or have any answers for me on what might be going on that are totally overwhelming and scary as hell?
Good one on Baby Dreams - it helps a lot!
ReplyDeleteWe clearly share similar parenting experiences and views.
I've been reading one that I'm hooked on - http://todayscliche.com/.
I have a feeling you'd get a lot out of it.
Incredible job on your blog; keep it up.
Thanks,
Amy
Hey Catrisha... Certainly strange.. If you are pg and that last test was a faint + then you would be very early on. I would wait 2 days and test again. I never had spotting or a light AF in my first 2 pregnancies, but I spotted for a week with this one. In any case, try to stay calm! I pray alot for God to give the grace to accept what will be, and to calm my mind and fears. He has all the control, and you have to let him have it!! Trust me you'll feel soooo much better when you do! Love and hugs, Jodi
ReplyDeleteps get one of those tests that detect the lowest levels of hcg. believe it or not dollar store new choice is one of the best! and equate. they measure 25 mIU. I'm sure you are familiar with peeonastick.com :) one of my favorites!
Also clear blue easy digital are good early testers....DH said he couldn't see a line either, but he couldn't deny a "pregnant" on the digital read... But wait at least until wednesday!!!
ReplyDeleteCatrisha. I am so sorry. I don't know what that is all about. It is def strange none the less. Let me know what the dr. says.
ReplyDelete